~Missin My Angel~

I am missing my Angel. I have felt like I am getting better. I can actually go a few hours without thinking about the baby!

I HATE Mondays. Mondays are the day my week turned over...so I think hmm I should be 23 weeks today:(

I think that I am healing. Tears are no longer a major part of the day. Some times I can even go 1 whole day with no tears!! But I can make up for that easily in a few minutes of some days. I can feel the Lord with me. He has definitely been holding me the past 4 weeks.

I had this Christmas Tree Ornament made. It has our Angel Baby Boy's birth date on it. He is our angel on top of the Christmas tree. This is such a comfort to look at.

This has been the biggest struggle of my entire life. A part of me can feel peace because I know that he must have been one of Heavenly Father's choicest spirits. But a part of me also feels that it is so unfair. Why me???? Why now????

I found a sweet poem that makes me cry, but also gives me some comfort. I would like to share it.

My First Christmas In Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below

With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away your tear

For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear

But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring

For it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I see how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart.

But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones , you know I hold you dear.

And be glad I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift from my Heavenly home above.

I send you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.

Whats always most important are the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do.

I can't count the blessings or love he has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear.

Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.