Emotions

As my little man's due date approaches I find myself so emotional. I have gone through a million emotions these past 4 months. I have been doing fairly well considering I used to spend my whole shower just sobbing every night. But now all of these emotions are coming back full force. His due date is only 3 1/2 weeks away. I am absolutely dreading it! How am I going to deal? Its hard enough knowing that I should be 36 weeks pregnant right now. I am so stinkin mad!

I hate that I was not able to carry this precious little boy full term. I hate that I will never know who he looked like or what kind of personality he was to have. I hate that my children will never know their little brother. I hate that Tyson and I will never be able to hug and comfort this little boy. I hate that I have to refer to him as my little angel. I hate that I will never again enjoy a carefree pregnancy. I hate that I will worry about my pregnancy from the moment I see the positive sign. I hate that I dread seeing pregnant women and new babies. I hate that I feel so robbed and so heartbroken. I just plain hate everything that has come with this.

Sorry that this post was so negative. It feels good to get this out! I am so thankful for the kids I have and for my wonderful husband. I know that through them and the help of the Lord I will make it through his due date. I know that eventually things are going to look up and these emotions that are flooding back right now will recede. I KNOW I have to feel better eventually right?!

DinneR SerenadE

During dinner the other night Macie decided that she should serenade us with a song she learned at school. So this is what we heard the last half of dinner. Didn't want you to miss out so here it is!!! Sorry you will have to pause my playlist to hear her sing!

~Disney On Ice~

On Sunday we took the kids to Disney on Ice. Macie was super excited, but Connor wasn't sure until the show started. This particular show was so perfect for my kids. Connor LOVES the movie Cars. He was so excited to see Mater and Lightning McQueen. For him this part of the show was his favorite and it didn't last long enough. He kept asking when they were coming back. Then we watched The Little Mermaid. Macie loved it! We also saw the Lion King. And last was TinkerBell, which Macie loved as well. We had such a great time just being together as a family and enjoying each other. It was so fun to watch the kids watch the show. They were so intrigued! We had a great time.